I didn’t mean to disappear again. I’ve been having some… mental blocks? I guess you could call them that. Every time I sit down to write, I got nothing. My English teacher always told me that if I wasn’t able to write, just to write about not being able to write, and the dam would break. We’ll see how that goes.
February and March have gone by so fast. I was battling a very nasty case of strep throat for most of it, which took me to the ER a couple of weeks ago because my uvula was so swollen that it blocked my airway. I don’t go to the ER often, so you know if something takes me there, it’s pretty dire. The doctor I saw was wonderful. She gave me dexamethasone (that stuff was a miracle – I didn’t realize how much I was struggling until I took it and all my swelling vanished an hour later), children’s Advil and Tylenol, and an outpatient prescription for penicillin-VK.
Turns out that I have developed an allergy to penicillin, which caused my gums on the left side to become severely swollen and inflamed, and a petechiae rash on my legs. I have never been allergic to any medication I’ve ever taken, so that was a very new situation for me. My doctor was quite concerned, and he wants me to get tested formally, but I’m not sure if I’m game for something like that yet. I’m finally feeling better and eating properly… I don’t want to give that up just yet.
My birthday ended up being pretty low key. Charlie bought Indian food from my favourite place, and we had red velvet cake. So far, 37 is okay. I don’t feel any different. I thought I would be a bit of a wreck about it, because I’m creeping close to the big 4-0 now, but I have found that I don’t really care about it. I don’t feel my age, I don’t look my age, and as long as I feel okay and keep up with my health, I’ll be fine.
I’ve gotten my formal diagnosis of diabetes, as well. That happened. I did the stupid glucose tolerance test (worst two hours of my life don’t cha know) and it came back with an elevated fasting glucose. It wasn’t super high, but it was enough to be over the line. I’ve been taking metformin, but my doctor and I are talking about switching me to Ozempic. He told me that metformin is weight-neutral, and he wants me on something that’s going to help me with weight loss. I don’t see him again until May – if I see my bariatric doctor before that, I might just ask them to prescribe it for me. I scored some samples from the pharmacy rep, but I’m too scared to try it without talking to someone first.
Other than that… life has just been work, school, taking care of the girls, and coven stuff. Also, new Sleep Token dropped and I’ve been listening to it on repeat since it came out. Apparently, we’re getting a new single on April 4, by the name of “Caramel,” but we’ll see. Worship.
Beautiful, right? I swear, Vessel’s voice could melt butter. Sometimes I just marvel at the fact that he’s a real person; that a real person could be so talented.
Anywho. I’m working on some poetry that I’m hoping to polish up and share. I haven’t written poetry in a while, so I’m being gentle with myself. I’ll post that when I feel it’s ready to be shared.